Friday, April 28, 2006
blogger; melinda
msn; no one
windowsMEDIA; UngHoangPhuc&AnhKiet - Chang Kho Thuy Chung
Ahh, good old vietnamese music again (:
Anyways, lastnights dispute was far worse then i expected. It's probably changed our perspective on everything now, it's probably put more thoughts into yours and my's head about us.
However, even with us raging,ranting,swearing and screaming at eachother, nothings changed to me. Nothing. That's the focused problem. Nothing is changing, for better or worse nothing has and maybe will never change. Oh my do i wish it will. But however wishing is the less i can do, to make all these problems go away.
I wouldn't say it's a total waste of time, but i do say it's the lack of believing we both have.
It's true what you said and i agree, seems like we don't understand eachother anymore. What happened to our understandings before? The way we both use to know how eachother felt about something, or what we meant to say? Because it seems like everything we know about eachother now is a complete lie. Seems like we DON'T know eachother.
If i was to meet someone new, i think i'd know them more then i know you now. That's how much it's changed between us. I don't know what cause this change? But im tired from running away from the problems. It's been 1 year, regardless of the times we've seperated and came running back to eachother, soo much has occured in this 1 year of ours. And to me i'm taking into account the goods and bads, so at the moment there are far way more bad memories then good one. But the memories we shared before hand, didn't we just seem.. so .. happy?
Till this day, i don't have an understanding to what's brought us to here.
Happiness is a virtue, and im searching for it.
once loved.
12:37 PM
