Saturday, April 22, 2006
blogger; melinda
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At home at the moment, and so bored.
Susan is working and i think at the moment Janie is studying or attempting to do her homework. lols goodluck shorty your a mad ass procastinator! =).
Wells, today was spent basically doing nothing? Stayed home ALL day. This is probably the first day or something that i stayed home a whole day in the holidays without attempting to go out, well actually i however DID attempt to go out with Janie to Bankstown to meet up with Susan and go for lunch. But that did go as planned.
Oh gee, it's cold outside so windy and breezy. Probably a good day to go strolling hrms. I wonder what i'd be doing tonight? There are parties on and i'm not going =(.
Trying my best to stay home a whole entire day to make my parents happy. However my parents are not HOME, so i guess the plan is also useless, like farout.
I've been thinking, and sometimes when your home alone there is nothing else you can do but think, no matter how much you've avoided it.
Just as much as i run away from my troubles, more troubles comeback biting me on my ass. So therefore i don't see the use of me avoiding my troubles anymore, so i guess i'd just put up with it. When one disappears or seems to have removed themself or itself from your life, another comes along the way. And at times i just ask myself, what do they want from me? I do things MY way, yet it doesn't please them. But when i question them to as what they want me to be or what they want me to do they give me the attitude like as if they dont give a damn. No offence? if you didn't give a damn at all in the beginning don't come wasting my time. My time is much more precious then your worthless thoughts about what you want. Because all you care, is appreciation amongst yourself. However i've told you countless of times, us girls show our appreciation in a different way, you still don't seem to take it into account. May i question, are you stupid? or do you just commonly lack knowledge? I see your friends are much different people's to what you've become. And that they dont do things because that want something in return, unlike you. Someone who just want it all plattered out in front of his face.
At first, you were cool, alright fun but abit weird to us. However you fitted in with us. We ACTUALLY got along. But from what i see, as time goes by people reveal themselves, and they reveal themselves in their own way. That time i actually saw you and spent the day with you along with my friends and yours, it shouldn't of happened. Because why?, because now we actually created a friendship, and on the verge of probably loosing it with your stubborness and your lack of understanding others. You want it your way, and thats why we dislike you at the moment. No offence your not all that bad, but it's just some things you say and do? It just annoys us, how can someone at the age that you are, and the past experiences you have be such an inconsiderate human being.
Probably the respect we have for you is about lower then average now. But until then the appreciation of you taking us around, is however still in existence. You dont need us to prove it or show it. Whatever for? Is it like a 'reward' to you? Or the feeling of ' oh i feel so cool' they love me? Because if that was the case? Go get yourself a new life, new image, new personality and new friends.
Oh gee. I blogged so much, and about nothing too? Sound so bitchy ahah. Well like many says the truth hurts, but it must be told =). OH by the way, i was suppose to post up a funny picture of tina & michelle from lastnights dinner! ahah look UP. at the beginning of the blog! x)!
once loved.
4:21 PM
