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itunes; someday oneday - christina millian

WARNING: This is some EMO shit ( LOL!!)

I don’t know what it is. I get on my days just fine but occasionally I just feel really shit and lonely I suppose? This time around I don’t think of you or "us" as much because I know that separation was the best thing, and that there was no chance of you changing to suit the needs of a relationship.

I always thought you were one in a million but thankfully for me the population of human race is much bigger than that. The thoughts that came to my mind believing that there was still a chance between us was complete bullshit. You once again brainwashed me into thinking that I was to have belief in us - when really there's no reason for me to be with you. You always thought I "needed" you, made me feel like I was such a burden BUT you know what? I'm going to prove you wrong.

I wonder is it because of the way you constantly push me away then come running back? All those times when I was in tears and felt like my heart was going to break into a million pieces...you were never there when I needed you the most. I'm proud to say that I haven't shed one single tear since. I've seen plenty of couples go through hell and back and managed to stick together, yet even though I know there's nothing that stops us ( well actually there are certain aspects) from doing so, it was you who neevr believed in us to begin with. You don't believe in working things out. You don't believe in committment. You don't believe in change. Overall you don't unserstand what a relationship is about. I admit I've tried to at least change your perspective on various things but in the end I know I failed.

"someday oneday"

Ok i know you all proberly think I'm the queen of cynicism but don't worry it ends here, no more emo stuff i pwomise! =]