Friday, March 24, 2006
maths exam done.
oh gee the relief. i can't seem contemplate that this weeks been a good one for me, it's far from that. so many dramas emerging into my life at the moment.
it's like a list of to do things. and each of them are being ticked off, one by one.
i really hate this stage of life, or just the stage of being sad or knowing you have problems and just worrying about it. even IF you try your all to extract all the worries and problems that's affecting your daily lifestyle. but no matter how much you try, you always have to take the issue into account regardless of what you need and have to do. well at least this is how my problems and thought's are revolving around me right now.
it's so easy just to pick up myself and run away, or let go of that problem that's been distracting me from what i need to do. but, however i chose not to. and yet, im afraid that's the wrong decision. i guess i have to wait and see if the decision i chose has a positive or negative result.
i've shed countless amount of tears during these past 3 days, and the heartache i feel is undescribable. i'm back at square one, trying my best to step my game up, be strong and fight.
but, something back there is holding me back. and i don't know what. i really want this to go away.
i have never ever wanted happiness so badly before ...
loves, melinda myanh nguyen
once loved.
10:31 PM
