Monday, March 06, 2006
I was lying in bed at 1am in the morning, unable to get to sleep and being the weird compulsive thinker that i am, started reflecting about that feeling. you know
that feeling...magical yet exquisitely simple is the best my mind can describe it.
i don't exclude the bad, i simply ignore and see the good. my and melynda were just discussing about certain issues, horrible isn't it? it makes you so
vulnerable. it opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. you build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid reason, no different from any other stupid reason, wanders into your stupid life and eats you up.
i contanstly wonder how i end up in the same situation time after time. slowly on the verge of moving on, you come back asking for it again. love takes hostages, am i simply one of them?
let's just end this blame game, no more accusations, for once can we make it right?
confuzzled,
janieNGUYEN
once loved.
5:58 PM
