Sunday, March 12, 2006
i miss her, i really do miss her.
even though i didn't really know her so well, i didn't get the chance of being a close friend and spending quality time with her, i really do miss her with all my heart.
it's fact, shes gone. but never will she be forgotten. its been 100 days since she left us all, and you know what, i regret it not attending her mass today. but however i'd perfer visiting her at the place where she now rests in peace, and have my time alone with her, to talk to her. even if she isn't present and physically there, the fact that i can feel like i'm talking to her again, will satisfy me enough.
it's funny how the thought of her strucks me at this hour, why? why out of all times now?
been reading every single entry deticated to her on her tribute site, and i got to admit. i envy you vii, so many people knew you and respected you for who you are. at to believe that at times i took you for granted, and the person i thought you were.
and now, your passing has proved me wrong. i can't begin to explain the guilt that i am feeling at the moment. reliving the days, how i found out that you passed away is such a pain.
i'm sure alot of people are missing you, and alot love you. although you weren't a close friend of mine, nor did i know you so well, i can't explain the feeling that i have in me at the moment, of loosing someone.
yes, indeed we had our fair share of arguments, calling eachother names and disagreements. but deep down, i don't look back and regret those days, i look back and see that we had different perspectives of what we saw in eachother, but i know for a fact besides all that i knew that you we're a cheerful person and someone whom had so much potential in succeeding in their life.
it's a pity god took you away, and at such a young age. some days, thoughts of you just randomly pop in my mind, and thus, thats when i start thinking about you, worrying and remincising the times we once had together.
i honestly with my heart
do miss you vii.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen
once loved.
12:49 AM
