#susanNGUYEN
north vietnamese.15nov1989.
single to mingle.yr11 bankstown girls.resides in Bankstown. big mouf, KOOL!

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south viet-chink.O4sept1989.
independent.yr11 bankstown girls.resides in bankstown.loud, outspoken, low-tolerance

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north vietnamese.2Ojune1989.
flying solo.yr11 bankstown girls.resides in marrickville.short, fiesty, humorous

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showered? YES, homework? NO, cause i have NONE. dinner ?YES!
simpsons hour? ABSOLUTLY YES! =)
aww, i would say what a great night tonights been so far, but i just have to have my periods. darn it. but i have invested in tampons! =)
tampons are a new REVOLUTION!, excuse me if im grossing you out. but then again it's only your fault to still be continuing to read this entry now. so your lose my gain =)

anyways, school todays was fine ONE assesment down and plenty more to go. ahh senior year is starting to kick in with the assesment taks, exams and stress. just relieved that got the maths exam done. over and out!
i gotta say, last week was a tough one many dramas are happening in my life. was in the 'not in the mood' type everyday, and it just seemed to procastinate me from doing whatever i wanted to do. i guess, im starting to get by day by day because being in that mood just fucks me up, and therefore im reluctant for ANYTHING. i need more time with my girls. and stop worrying about these relationship problems. because i guess down the track later these problems are only minor situations compared to whats installed in life for me.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
8:00 PM

maths exam done.
oh gee the relief. i can't seem contemplate that this weeks been a good one for me, it's far from that. so many dramas emerging into my life at the moment.
it's like a list of to do things. and each of them are being ticked off, one by one.

i really hate this stage of life, or just the stage of being sad or knowing you have problems and just worrying about it. even IF you try your all to extract all the worries and problems that's affecting your daily lifestyle. but no matter how much you try, you always have to take the issue into account regardless of what you need and have to do. well at least this is how my problems and thought's are revolving around me right now.
it's so easy just to pick up myself and run away, or let go of that problem that's been distracting me from what i need to do. but, however i chose not to. and yet, im afraid that's the wrong decision. i guess i have to wait and see if the decision i chose has a positive or negative result.
i've shed countless amount of tears during these past 3 days, and the heartache i feel is undescribable. i'm back at square one, trying my best to step my game up, be strong and fight.
but, something back there is holding me back. and i don't know what. i really want this to go away.

i have never ever wanted happiness so badly before ...
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
10:31 PM

THE only newgen that blogs on this site, *sigh.
well considering that susan and janie has admitted that the can't blog on and 'ugly' site, and question myself as to how i do so, lols well, a blog is a blog. lols whenever im bored, have something on my mind or yeh, just plain bored blogspot is where i turn to.
it's like my internet journal, actually reconsidering, it IS my internet journal.

yesterday, hmm yesterday was a tough day. towards the end of the day it had a dramatic twist.
which cause me to rationally say things without reconsidering it. but there's so little i can consume in my mind. and that's just about it. i've ultimately have had enough.
stuck in a corner and don't know which direction to turn to, or just stay put in that corner of mine. there's so many questions lurking in my head. questions that are yet not answered, and maybe will take a very long period of time until a verdict is reached.

jason wade - you belong to me, theme song from shrek.
great song and i advise you people to download it. it's an alternative song, very much like tyler hilton - when stars go blue, a theme song from one tree hill. yes, that tv series that chad michael murray starred in, isn't he hot? ahah NO.
that's sarcasm, i don't see anything orgasmic about the young lad. and the season of one tree hill was just pointless. nothing beats DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES =)
that reminds me, desperate house wives on tonight 8:45 .OMG! it's on NOW?! okays, im off to watch it. =)=) cheers
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
9:41 PM

its pretty late, well at least on my watch.
been sleeping fairly early ever since school has begun, and having the habits of getting up early in the wee hours in the morning on a weekend, but i guess that's a good advantage.
means, more time to do what i need and want to do.

don't know what im feeling at the moment, been feeling so down today. i guess it isn't such a good weekend after all. can't keep track of whats been on my mind lately, because i want to take the coward way out of it all, i just simply want to extract the bad and keep in my the good, but a lesson to be learnt.
dealing with life, isn't about keeping the good memories or the goods that happened, it's about taking it all in and facing any problem, or worries.
and i deeply respect people whom, have the power to do that.
because i don't consider myself as one of those people, im weak and i know it.

i can't even begin to explain how tough this weeks been, so much drama. sometimes you just want to ignore everyone and everything that's in your life.
friends? the girls are a lovely bunch, each individual has their own talent, their own weakness and not to mention their ability of being strong. ( emotion wise )
but, however the drama's that's been going on within the group, *lets out big sigh.
don't know what to say, but just to sit and observe everything that happens. and lately i guess i've been doing that alot.

there's so much i can ever hold in, and i don't know how long it is till the day i crack.
sometime's i want to tell you what i think, and how i feel. but i guess e've been through that stage already.
but time is suppose to tell isn't it? well time is taking its bloody ass TIME, ha! doesn't really make sense at all but stuff that.
i want to take a break from all of this. and live the perfect princess fairytale life.
i need soilders, so they can guard my heart and shield it from heartbreak. =S ? i don't know what im on about anymore. getting tired.
i guess one last thing i'd say, a heart is delicate its fragile and thou shall not break it.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
11:22 PM

wow, my darling susan has blogged. this blog misses your presence susan, now don't get a big head =).
well, i didn't blog yesterday, because there was nothing worth blogging about besides the fact that i went night shops with my dear brother son and lovely niece jennifer.
purchased many accesories and i need it, also bought this faboulous top and sailor singlet thing, i don't really know how to explain it but its so gorgeous and vintage!
omg, i finally got my glasses today =), the plastice black frames vogue, tried on about what, 10 pairs of glasses and only one in the store suited me, i really wanted to mooks one, but it made my face look huge!

school today was like any other day, and theres alot of dramas going on around school, and alone in our group.
like i've heard many people say, senior year is the year you finally realise who your true friends are, you lose friends, you find new friends and you find yourself making a stronger bond with the friends left behind. wondering and considering to myself, is this statement false? or could it really be true.
but for one thing i am sure of is that, senior year is a dramatic twist upon one's life.
love, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
5:10 PM

darn it ! dese hiccups are startin to piss me off .. haha well lookz lyk i habnt blogged or been seen or heard by anyone buh my skool fwens lately .. well lyk i sed ima changed person dis year =D so proud of myself for startin off dis yr lyk dis buh da question is how long xD hahah !! hmm .. i dnt realli hab anyffink to blog abt coz nuffinks happened to me lately except wake up go skool go home sleep n den da method repeats .. jst bloggin for da sake of it LOL .. well short one for tudays n keep up da nerdin my newgenz * thumbs up * LOL

love susan ..

once loved.
11:11 PM

hmm, seems like i'm the only newgen that doesn't neglect this blog, like the OTHER newgens on this blog. ahemm.
ahha naah, pretty much sure they are occupied with their studying, susan has dramatically changed ever since she hit senior year and darn proud of ya.
well, i'm a tad tired at the moment from the maths workload, and im pretty much convinced that there's more to come.
my neck has been so soar lately, i wonder what these symptons are? oh no, must it be another illness, darn i hate these coming and going illnesses of mine and mind you i'm mostly certainly NOT diseased. =)

there's nothing much to blog about these days, nothing entices me and im just repeating myself yet again from the other blog. OH WELLS.
mary j blige / be without you, hmm is it me? or does it seem like this song is very popular at the moment, it's probably one of the best mary j blige's songs i have ever heard.
omg, im so tired at the moment, i'd most probably end this blog nows before i rag on about irrelevant issues in my oh so boring life.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
8:40 PM

i have just spent 3 hours frying my brain on maths, and there is 2 more hours to come, next up? business studies =)
senior year, isn't treating me very badly but it also hasn't been all that bright either. so much work, but i think, THINK i can cope. just waiting til the day i go bonkers. lols

i reckon, brining my pencil case and books we're so not worthwile todays!, like for god sakes we didn't do any work at all?, first period, economics in which the teacher spent most of the period talking and discussing about the mix market machanism.
after that, followed up ancient history, finished off the movie troy, LUNCH then, legal studies and the whole entire period we spent role playing? well not litreally role playing, but just imaging our classroom was our OWN society, and we have control in the law. so therefore mr.stamm gave us the opportunity to enforce our own laws.
we had to make up and anthem =) roflmaos.
so, here it goes btw, our country or state was called 'SIXTEENIA' =)=) lols!
so heres OUR anthem,
we are 16, we are great.
we will dominate the state,
YO, bro! HEY sis, ho ho , HEY HEY.
roflmaos! cool huh ? =) i know, it's fabtastic. well after legal was lunch and then business studies in which our substitute teacher FORGOT about us, so therefore heres us standing outside our classrom door for about half an hour until the school bell rung, for home time.
after school, suprisingly walked out of the gates to see david waiting for me =), picked me up and went bank, bankstown centro and so fourth. then home i go. thanks hun for the ride =)
studying till now, and im a tad tired.
1HOUR of fat simpsons?! YES PLEASE =) x100000!! funniest episodes of simpsons i have EVER witnessed, i MUST get it on dvd. thats another item added onto the oh so long wishlist. =)
OC is on, this means im out! =)
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
8:31 PM

what a hot one today!
litreally, i was sweating like a pig just standing there playing sport. the teacher is crazy i tell you darn you mr. mustapha!
he rejected my idea of staying in the pretty much cool room rather then play sport. so therefore, he expected us to stand around in the sun playing newcomb ball / volleyball.
but i gotta say, the game didn't turn out all that bad.
school, was like any other day. and it just seems like exam period is creeping up on us closer and closer everyday that goes by. im sick to my throat.
scared of what marks i will get, and im afraid of looking at the test paper. sigh, exam period, the one period i most despise and disgust!

there's not much to blog about anymore these days, seems like my life is starting to get boring.
no more dramas in my life, nothing entices me anymore *sigh. it's just plain school, home, homework and yada yada.
i must!, MUST find something intresting to talk about, or if i can't find anything intresting to talk about then i will make my days more amusing. =)
ooo, recieved a astonishing mail todays =) my taxation cheque =D x100000000!!
this means the ching ching is rolling in, and im so glad. about time, and this time round i shall save save SAVE! =D. anyways, first thing on my list and it shall be the only thing on my list, buy my dear brother hong and iPod nano for his birthday. =) now just considering, white or black?
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
7:09 PM

the brother has set off to the country boarders of vietnam and hong kong.
have fun dear brother van. =), and gosh feeling lonely without his presence already.
so very bored at the moment, and i've finally worked out how to upload songs and pictures onto my v3 without having to bang it hystrically on the table. lols.
i have finally uploaded 16 songs, vwuala =) what a job well done =).

anyways, how was my day todays?, hrms. it wasn't so bad.
spent the day with david as it was our anniversary today, happy one year. knowing that its the actual date this time when i mentioned it.
oh boy, im so tired and i don't know why, its currently only 8:45 and im drowsy and sleepy, like wdhell this is a first!.
short entry for today, toodloos im off.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
8:40 PM

its currently 1.30am saturday night. actually sunday morning to be exact. im bored. im really bored. like really...IM FUKING BORED.

are you feeling me? well are you...ARE YOU?

oh my golly gosh look what boredom has done to me!

anways i would firstly like to wish both my little sunshines a happy one year anniversary! it's amazing how long both of you's have lasted with eachother. where is my thank-you huh? if it wassen't through ME ME ME, you's wouldn't have met eachother. get it...

janie meets david -> introduces susan -> meets melynda -> den tralalala! =)

fabulous fairytale! xD. alright i'm gonna stop right here, right now before i start writing about something more pointless! oh yer susan find another layout, i'm not fond of this one at all. LOL

bored, janieNGUYEN

once loved.
1:29 AM

i miss her, i really do miss her.
even though i didn't really know her so well, i didn't get the chance of being a close friend and spending quality time with her, i really do miss her with all my heart.
it's fact, shes gone. but never will she be forgotten. its been 100 days since she left us all, and you know what, i regret it not attending her mass today. but however i'd perfer visiting her at the place where she now rests in peace, and have my time alone with her, to talk to her. even if she isn't present and physically there, the fact that i can feel like i'm talking to her again, will satisfy me enough.
it's funny how the thought of her strucks me at this hour, why? why out of all times now?
been reading every single entry deticated to her on her tribute site, and i got to admit. i envy you vii, so many people knew you and respected you for who you are. at to believe that at times i took you for granted, and the person i thought you were.
and now, your passing has proved me wrong. i can't begin to explain the guilt that i am feeling at the moment. reliving the days, how i found out that you passed away is such a pain.
i'm sure alot of people are missing you, and alot love you. although you weren't a close friend of mine, nor did i know you so well, i can't explain the feeling that i have in me at the moment, of loosing someone.
yes, indeed we had our fair share of arguments, calling eachother names and disagreements. but deep down, i don't look back and regret those days, i look back and see that we had different perspectives of what we saw in eachother, but i know for a fact besides all that i knew that you we're a cheerful person and someone whom had so much potential in succeeding in their life.
it's a pity god took you away, and at such a young age. some days, thoughts of you just randomly pop in my mind, and thus, thats when i start thinking about you, worrying and remincising the times we once had together.
i honestly with my heart do miss you vii.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
12:49 AM

great news!, i finally got my V3 today, sleek and black JUST the way i like it. simple! * baliss! mwa!roflmaos.
but yes yes like EVERYONE mostly CAROLINE told me, its shit yada yada bad memory yada yada, but thick headed me was determined to get it, and now? i upload ONE freakn song and the memory is gone! like wdhell ?
anyways today wasn't that interesting, except the fact that mikewl fully got pampered by susan at her house. ahah poor boy, poor poor boy.
free, and i shall repeat FREE head wash with the best shampoo of course! =), manicure, free blowdry and styling of hair =)=). ahah! superp!
susan should so open up her own hairdressing salon and I shall assist her. =D
mikewl dude has turned into mikewl DUDETTE ahah!! , im so sleepy atm and in precisley, 46 minutes its my darling one year with my beloved david.
and since your alseep now lazy bastard! =) but i still love you , happy one year =).

i want to congratulate you on lasting one year and putting up with my bullshits for a whole entire year, and yes i'm aware during the journal we've taken together there has been uncountable problems that has emerged in this relationship of ours.
but i can't begin to say how much you mean to me, and how much i love you sometimes lols, yes you do get annoying at times and i know i'm not all that good either roflmaos.
but aye! annoying + annoying = PURFECTO! xD
no. well now seriously talking, we've encountered many problems during the months that we've been together, but we still turn back to eachother for comfort and love. and till this stage i've realised just how important you are, and sometimes of what a great person you are.
no doubt there are negatives about you, but what i love about you is that you've been there for me all through my happiest moments and my saddest moments.
you were there when my world almost collasped on me, and i have nothing else to say but thank you so much for the past year.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
11:12 PM

just finished watching Lizzie McGuire the movie, and i gotta say the movie has inspired me to write down the ballad to Isabella's and Pollo's song what dreams are made of.
so corny?, yes i know but its such a soothing song =) and i shall write the ballad down.
oh btw, just on another note baked muffins for my brother van's birthday, you all are probably thinking muffins =S? shouldn't it be CAKES? well, just for the record, i had no cake mix left only muffin mix and i was a tad lazy to go out to the corner store and purchase cake mix, but the mini birthday muffins was oh so cute and great!.
each one had a letter and when you looked at the plate all muffins combined spelt, happy 28th van .
anyways, back to the ballad =)
have you ever seen such a beautiful night,
i could almost kiss the stars, for shinning so bright.
when i see you smiling i go, oh oh oh.
i would never want to miss this,
in my heart i know what this is.
this is what dreams are made of.
this is what dreams are made of.
i've got somewhere i belong,
i've got somebody to love.
this is what dreams are made of.
yes, thats it =) very random blog but anyways!
loves. melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
10:37 PM

head aching again today,
i can't stand these constant head aches recurring every single day and lasts about an hour or more for each time it happens. it darn pisses me off!. grr
today is also the 10th of March, which means its my brothers birthday =), i want to wish my dear brother a very merry happy birthday! ho ho ho! roflmaos. HAPPY 28th BIRTHDAY VAN!, i hope you WILL enjoy your gift from chau, and without my help! you wouldnt recieve it so THANK ME =) , me me me me me ! hoping that everything will go your way and enjoy your holiday to vietnam! loves your little peeny tiny sister melzy baby!. =)
anyways went out to bankstown with the brother before, hong.
had my eye site tested and yes, i do indeed need glasses, and just for the record im long sited. which means i need my glasses when i study, and when im doing my work or reading. either from that? i dont need it. ive increased by 0.5 , used to be +.07 ? now im +.075 ? i think so, well some where alone the lines of that, but however my optometrist said its not a positive thing, ive exceeded my average limit. yada yada, i bet most of you dont even know what im on about, how can i blame you ? i dont even know what i'm on about.

well currently making an effort to hit the books hardout, with no distractions! , but the computer is right in front of me and dear lord it is so so so tempting, and LOOK im blogging -_-' that means something! , temptations gotten the best of me. darn it!
lets hope that i'll finish off all these english chapter summaries and then the loads of maths exercises and maybe my weekend well be a well off weekend.
i just want this week to be a good week, i dont know what im going on about, but sigh.
theres so much on this mind of mine at the moment. i just want to switch it off!
wheres the off button?!
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
2:29 PM

first insult from my brother in so long, ' mel why do you have to be such an impulsive shopper ? ' is it really my fault van? is it ? is it REALLY?
well today was school, a thursday nothing much to talk about.
saw david after school , yada yada. seems like ages since ive seen him.
yup. anyways moving on, went to late night with brother tonight, roaming around centro bankstown in search to find the motorola V3.
but however, they didnt have it in stock! darn it . darn it darn it !! anyways, searching and searching then BANG! finally found a store that had it in stock, black that is not pink or grey BLACK! but however since my brother was raised up an asian, and living in the same house as THE mother, she taught him well enough to know how to get a good bargain and SAVE SAVE SAVE! $$ was going to get the v3 for 480$ , but initially i was supposed to get it for 430$,
that store didnt have it ins tock so i was about to get it for about 480$, as he lectured me he goes why dont you SAVE 50 buckeroos, and just wait for the other store to get it in stock.
this is the part of me where i mostly dislike the IMPAITENT me.
why on earth am i so impaitent, i have no clue what so ever what im impaitent about as well.wells, 3 more days and my brothers off to vietnam.
importing him back to the country he belongs to! ahahAHAHah xD , for those who didnt find that joke funny? well I DID so HIT THE ROAD JACKAROO'S !but yes, for sure ill miss him dearly and my arms will be opened wide waiting for him to come back and the presents too of course. lets not forget =)
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
9:27 PM

dang it!, i have the sniffles and this sucks, getting allergic reactions from the dust in my brothers room arggh.
today? wasn't so bad , school was okay i guess and there was nothing interesting nor worth talking about. and boy oh boy susan, you lame ass nice entry by the way ;) roflmaos.
i guess janie and i have to open ' THE DOOR ' to let more opportunities come our way, yet in life everyone is afraid of something, and im guessing im one of those whom are afraid of giving opportunities. and believe me that really sucks balls.
anyways on another note, moving through life abit better with less worries. havent been or letting those worries and thoughts get to me as much, but however at times where i just sit and think to myself, those worries start to hit me. and i try to focus on the good and simply just push aside the bad, but no matter what i do i cant come to a biased decision.
i guess life isnt that easy, and questions arent easily answered so i guess these questions that are lurring in my mind will be answered in the long run? , and i just have to take a seat in life and just be paitent and wait for the answer, no matter the outcome.
on another note, brothers going vietnam this sunday i will miss him dearly ... ahHAHAhah not! well maybe a teeny tiny lil peeny bit! xD!
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
9:01 PM

oh my golly gosh ! xD my newgens are such suckers for love .. ROFL jkz ! haha .. well its lyk quite late now n tuday i decided to hab sum relaxation tym xD its been a while since ive been on da net n suprisingly im not goink crazy runnin up da wallz at all which i wuld be doin last yr .. i guess ima changed person ;) speakin of change dat jst reminded me of da area of study im habin in english which i hab not found a related material at all for it =[ .. i need HELP ! LOL unoe change is da key ingredient for seekin happiness in lyf .. n readin ova janies n melz blog ive come to realised u girls need to open 'THE DOOR' haha xD .. by openin da door it may be foggy at first buh dis fog will soon clear xD gosh i gotta shut up abt dat stupid poem haha ! buh u get da point girls .. jst proves use habnt read da poem inuf to undastand 'change' xD .. well aniways im too lazi to blog a long entry tuday so ima gonna jet nows .. =]=]

love susan ..

once loved.
11:09 PM

reading janie's blog, i have nothing against what she says or the statement she makes with how she is feeling now, cause no doubt i feel somewhat exactly the same as you little janie.
yes, janie and i do have discussions of our so called ' issues ' and when we do? it just comes to our attention, and i reflect on how much we are alike in this catergory of ' love ' .
ive made me share of thoughts, from the entry i made on sunday. and thats as far as ill go and as much as ill say. thats simply it. i know maybe later on, or even now that i have other thoughts lurring in my head, only im simply blocking it out. taking assumptions of what might happen if i do make a wrong move so my answer is make no move at all.
well at least this is how i am thinking at the moment just to get the day going and live through eachday with less worries. but with no doubt, i know all this confusion will finally come to an answer, and i know that one day everything is going to work out. but then again i have told myself that self convincing line one too many, and it just doesnt seem like telling myself that this time round is going to work.
no doubt, im confused yet i dont know what im confused about.
so therefore i act as if nothing is worrying me, but behind that smile there is many hidden worries, sorrows and thoughts. i just dont want this issue being brought up again, and like janie, this time lets make it right and start trying.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
8:50 PM

I was lying in bed at 1am in the morning, unable to get to sleep and being the weird compulsive thinker that i am, started reflecting about that feeling. you know that feeling...magical yet exquisitely simple is the best my mind can describe it.

i don't exclude the bad, i simply ignore and see the good. my and melynda were just discussing about certain issues, horrible isn't it? it makes you so vulnerable. it opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. you build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armour, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid reason, no different from any other stupid reason, wanders into your stupid life and eats you up.

i contanstly wonder how i end up in the same situation time after time. slowly on the verge of moving on, you come back asking for it again. love takes hostages, am i simply one of them?
let's just end this blame game, no more accusations, for once can we make it right?

confuzzled, janieNGUYEN

once loved.
5:58 PM

today was ancient history EXCURSION day, and boy oh boy was it hot?!
anyways, although it was hot and involved ALOT of walking i still had a ball. it was great fun especially when that white robot statue man opened his eyes and i couldnt see his pupils it was just plain all black, then caroline , michelle and i full screamed lmaos! in the middle of circular quay. so embarassing yet very entertaining. roflmaos! anyways ill blog later on tonight but im here for one purpose and its to upload some of the pictures we took today =)

once loved.
5:45 PM

so freakn tired today.
well since i didnt blog yesterday, i shall blog today =). michelles birthday yesterday =) hope you like the present michelle and make it useful! ;)
as the night went on, it wasnt so great and to start with susan, helen and i took about 2 hours just to get to the park and omlord it involved so much walking!
got to the party pretty late, saw some people i havent seen in pretty long.
i gotta say, for a celebration last night wasn't so great for me i guess its cause i had things on my mind and it still is there. not matter how hard or how much i try to block out all these negative thoughts, it still is there and wouldnt go away, and what kills me most is that its having impact on me.
i hate the fact that this is happening a fourth time, it's happened 3 times already and yet we still turn back to eachother. i want to pour my heart out to you yet im unsure of what we had is still there. i know our relationship is strong enough to get through this roough time, but then at the same time you have so much to worry abt and im only contributing where i should be helping. i want to be sure of what i want to do and atm my mind is everywhere, i cant do my work or eat because i dont feel like it, and whats causing this? its my thoughts of you, me and us. its selfish of me thinking about myself, i know but when we agreed to give this a third chance i was so sure that it wouldnt be like this, or maybe we wouldnt have to face these issues again. its hard to say at times i wish i had never met you, but then when i rethink to myself in meeting you, i learnt so much, about loving someone and being loved. you taught me alot and i thankyou. you do mean alot to me and i hope its vice versa to you.
and guess what? it feels like we're playing a game and we're back at square one. i love you and i love you so much, but why does it feel like this. i guess love gives you happiness and the side affects of it is pain. and i think im facing the side affects at the moment. i need to think to myself let go or hold on?
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
1:26 PM

it's FRIDAY, there goes yet another week of school gone past.
soon this term will be over, and then that means two more terms of working hard until year 11 is over for us and for the HSC to start, so everyone? hit the books!

well after school todays went bankstown with janie and susan, later on met caroline.
we shopped at bras 'n' things , and i gotta say i think im in love with that nurse suit i tried on. its so adorable and cute yet skanky? but hey!! its so niiccee!

anyways its a friday, end of the week and next week got ancient history excursion yipee!
and this means weekends sleeping in!! =)=) im a happy child! and im going to leave it a short blog for today =) so mwwaass everyone.
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
5:15 PM

well, id just like to declare that i had the best adventure today with susan, janie and caroline at paramatta shopping centre buying NOTHING! i am going to kill you susan, omg i have come to a conclusion that i went to parra with an intention to buy buy buy!! shop! and when i arrived i was hyped, caroline and i was VERY and let me repeat very excited, yet i bought nothing when i arrived home =(.
we didnt even buy michelle's birthday present janie and susan! oh gosh, what idiots.
well as susan got her sweater and haviana blue metallic thongs that carolines just oh so dying for =P sucker caroline. i like to watch you suffer mwahah!.
and caroline bought a billibong metallic golden tee, in which i wanted a similar one but VOLCOM. go volcom all the way =). and janie and i ? well, we purchased nothing.

when we were on our way to parra, we stopped at lidcomb and changed trains to parra.
and the man that got out of the train some asian old man, one look at him and i felt sympathy for him, looked so old and weak but damn, he stunk. no seriously, he stunk! i dont know what smell it smelt like but it stinks. and mind you it didnt stink nice. it was an ugly stink ><
well we caught the train to parra and it was cramped. we were like practically school childrens being squashed into a corner by the public, and mind you the odour on the train wasn't so great. when we got off at parra susan was so stunned by how much it changed that we all nearly got lost. it was like a WHOLE NEW WORLD to susan . ahah

anyways moving on, school was alrights. economics for us is like 'gossip session' catch up on eachothers gossip. poor susan full got payed out by mr. okeeth. roflmaos ' gee susan, your not very bright are you ? but then again looking at your face i knew you weren't a bright child ' susan; sitting there stunned yet speechless. which means she got OWNED. lols
the economic lesson today was spent talking to jasmine, lama and yasmine about asian and lebanese food, yups! =) ahah a very constructive lesson. lols lama asks us ' does vietnamese people eat chinese food ? ' and im like wdhell? , are you that stupid lama. lols
i dont know why i wrote that for but im really bored and just taking a tad of a break from studying. but right now? , im a tad tired so leaving it heres. =)
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
9:42 PM

omgsh .. yeps its been a while sinced i blog .. i no longer do my work in my room due to da fact dat weneva i look at my computer it jst screams to me TURN ME ON ! ONLI 5 MINZ OF NET WONT KILL ! buh realli 5 min turns into sumhow da hole nite ? LOL .. well ill try to keep dis entry short n sweet since i got loads of hw dat shuld not be neglected LOL .. well readin ova my newgens entries ive realised how much ppl bother sooo much to try dis so called fing 'LOVE' lyk realli hu gibs a shit xD LOL .. if its meant to happen den so be it .. even tho i hab neva experienced dis SENSATIONAL feelin xD ROFL hahaha .. i may do not noe wut it is buh from wah i hear from everyone its pain ! LOL .. narh i dernos buh sumhow love always seems to start off sweet n wonderful n turns into dis bitter n sour shit ppl go on abt buh hey dnt lissen to me wut wuld i noe i habnt experienced it xD HAHA .. aniways movin on abt sumffink else i mite hab a clue wif .. tomoros thursday ! n unoe wut dat means ?! para shoppin wif my galz ! hehe n takin janie to a hole new world shes neva been to ! xD .. welpz aniways lookin at melz last entry i jst wanna say dat ull neva get dose fings on dat list by urself ! xD .. oOoh n i jst remembered one speshal day comin up on fridai n i mite not be online on dat day so jst to make sure dat i wont forget i jst wanna say HAPPY 15TH BIRFDAY TO MY BROTHER MICHELLE ! .. altho ur a year older brother ur cocks still smaller den myn =] buh dnt worry one day sum day itll grow a tinsy winsy bigger ! xD

love always susan ..

once loved.
8:32 PM

while everyone is at school enjoying it, im right here sitting at home blogging and suffering pain from my cramps.
dangit. time of the month is the worse. well its 1st of march, yet another month gone by, soon you'll know it this year will be over anytime soon.
this legal studies extended response is fustrating me, i cannot drag my information any longer then one page and yet the teacher wants us to reach a maximum of 2 pages, god bless my soul.

ahh, whats there to talk about? since im at home and 'trying' to do my legal studies homework that i know cannot be done unless i get the papers from class which for one i am not in at the moment. i'll just try my best to blog about something worth blogging about.
since yesterday my blog seemed all depressing suicidal piece of crap, i guess ill make this blog more positive.
well special thanks to david for just wanting to talk to me yesterday after reading my blog, i gotta say for someone (me) whom didnt feel like sharing my problems out to anyone you sure helped me alot by just forcing it out of me thankyou so much.
i realised that after the phone call with him yestrday, and everything he told me everything he said that i should be faithful for what i can withold in my life. i shouldnt be taking some things for granted, actually i shouldnt be taking anything in life for granted nor should i be a pessimist.
i shall now remain a optimist, cause to look on the long run being a optimist will brighten up your days so much more, i never want to be that pessimitic mel again.
so from today onwards, i shall look forward and never will i look back on anything and say ' gee, i regret doing that ' no no no schmack me if i shall! =).
but then again after that conversation with david, made me realise how special the people in my life can make me feel, not of what they say its not always that, but its the fact that they make time for me. thats special enough for me and love you all thats been there for me all through my ups, downs and breakdowns. and especially so much thanks to david =) for putting up with me for nearly a year and still hanging on, i can always rely on you, so much love mwas! by the way, just flicking through my school diary and as susan jotted down, today is LOVE SUSAN DAY =) everyday is a LOVE SUSAN day. so love her LOTS schmakers! =)
loves, melinda myanh nguyen

once loved.
1:07 PM